Seasons...the reasons!

I dont boast about myself to be an air conditioner
for you in the hot scorching sun
but i can serve as a cute little white cap
so that ur head still has an undisturbed run!

I dont boast myself for showing u
the rainbow every rainy day
but i can serve an umbrella n see to it
that the heavy downpour learn their way!

I dont boast myself to serve u as a
woolen furry sweater in chilling cold
but you can trust me to provide you the
warmth u expect and caring hands to hold!

Spring is the time of the beautiful flowers
with white snow n mist n fog
what i want from u,i hope u shower
to me heartfully in an agog!

All through,its not the seasons
i wanted to describe about,phew!
all time,i just find newest reasons
to write on my feel about you!


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/-\ !< ! !_ ........ -- > !_! keep changing your colour always,but /-\ !< ! !_ never does....:P:P:P

An answer to my critics n legpullers....;)

Note : This was just to convey something in an organised manner using the flow i had for writing then.....and all the posts posted today were drafts saved in the account just thinking whether to post or not many times,today i felt abbah light .....blogging main all stuff chelega....;)....n these many self contradictory posts for the readers ...now toh they wont be able to judge my mindset le bolke....so went onnn ....:d....:).....:P.....;)....at the end of the day you dont want someone to know very clearly whats going in yopur mind in some intimate personal aspects naaa....;).......
anyways what all i wrote above is just crap n what all i posted is also all imaginary ..:P its better if u just keep it for reading and nothing else...no conclusions abt me please.....:D...i hate it ........here we go...!


people say this long behind one girl,
how can you be so mad?
i often tell them all,
"looking at ur ignorance,i feel sad
that for ur futile heart n blinded eyes
i hope ull will understand very late
that no matter how long it takes,the/what beauty lies
in giving n showing love for your soulmate
you would forever love to walk n live with n die for!!!"

giving someone the power to change your fate
can never be harshly compared to any bait
when you know that someone has the power to be your world
all ur emotions,controls n feelings why do you hold???
believe me,just share them all with your love
n one fine day,in front of you she/he shall take a bow
surprisingly,all you did will amplify n come back
leave ur ego,to get your love this is the only nack!!!!!
whats ego?if u n i just let it go!!!!!
but unfortunately the problem is i dont let it go....:(

blah blah blahingly :
akil karthik thatipalli

Deep into shit??...get out of ur pit...!!!!

If u can condition ur anger into constructive purposes
even after u got really heated up,
then it will satisfy ur emotion to hang her
for the way u feel she actually cheated u:P
Then later she will realise
after you succeed
that she could have been more wise
in understanding & accepting u for ur good deeds.

Then she shall repent
for what all wrong she did
n how her life is suffering a dent
because of her heart's feelings she hid.
Its now all upto ur concentration
to start working for ur aims by getting earthy,
to get her into guilt and veneration
n prove her wrong to have lost someone worthy!

Your life basically rocks
if all the hurt she brought u can get rid,
its time to pull up ur socks
n counter her for what all she did
proving that she lives in a closed box
for which you could have acted like an enlightened lid.
How could you ever think of living with that fox
and dream for having some beautiful kids...!!!!!;)

U want all the above mentioned lines to happen,
then u should have the un-supressible zeal
to c to it that executing ur aims shall never dampen
n underline that only then will she get the above feel.
oh buddy!its high time to realise
that the days of divine unconditional purest love
have all been replaced by only disguise
for personal commercial and secured lives now!

Note:Dedicated to all the idiotic one side lovers or the senseless fools who feel they failed in getting their love.......of all my classmates in engineering life....[:)]

There's more to life
than just getting ur wished wife,
Wake up and show the spirit of guys
standing bold n fearsome hitting ur thighs[:D]

Success lies in achieving ur aims
and not in getting a gal who is just just lame[:)]
in such cases only try to achieve the fame
n then u would be considered as a triumphant in the life's game

Maybe getting mind over heart is what the above lines strongly resemble n urge someone who reads it....;)....its hard to accept the above lines heartfully but none i feel can deny them !!!!!

(The ray of hope for the ones who stupidly enter into darkest darknesses)
Optimistically glittering :
Akil ...:D.....S we can do it.....;)

Standing still....being quiet!!!!

Is it wrong to stand still,
if that is what my heart wills?
I feel like just being quiet,
dont know whats my mind's plight!

In life,there comes a point when
even though u were always confident
n enthusiastic,still u feel the void,then
u start retrospecting the times u spent!

Is this the conventional sign of adoloscence?
or the ingress of a sinking depression?
Whatever!i'm least bothered of reason of its occurence
but my thought process now shouldnt be subjected to suppression!

About life,as shakespere rightly describes all the stages ,
i guess maybe now is my stage to understand all the adages!
My wish now is to acquire a peace of mind as sages
n also become proficient in understanding all bondages!

What do u get from restrospection?
"Thinking about past is just a waste of time,"
says one of my very close companion,
but not doin it,dont we tend to forget something prime?

I concluded about my this mindset
recently of what i feel about as of now
are the reasons for my this regret?
"After wishing to be the way u love,
trying or achieving whatever you wanted
in all your interests,passions n extra curricular activities
there lies in one hidden sinking feel,for which u r haunted
that in the process of achieving all ur aspirations,
have i forgot to maintain good acad records,
something which would determine my future job accords!"

should i regret for a dent in this aspect?
or be happy for something else i have learnt a lot
in parts or wholesome in many other respects!?
maybe the reason for my striking silence is these infinite inquisitive thoughts!!!

But i wonder n worry at times to the core,
that how could i decline at a particular thing?
for which in my childhood i was adored,
do i call it a victim of rapid impelling mood swings?

Plightfully :
A :( k :( i :( l :(

@@@ u drive me crazy! $$$

oh my Sweet little girl.....

to my eyeS,how preety you look,
i just cant concentrate on any of my bookS!
you are juSt driving me crazy,
in all my other workS i'm just getting lazy!

all through the day,
i'm juSt thinking of you!
what could be the way,
of getting even more cloSer to you!

what'S the magic in your Smile,
which makeS me joyouS all the while,
at me,no matter who ever Smiles,
none of theirS is even worthwhile!

Believe me,whenever u Smile,
i feel the guSh of feelingS flowing!
in me aS beautifully aS water in nile,
making my face aS a radium glowing!

how beautiful u look in your GOLD chain
i wonder why for others is that metal SOLD
how cute is your tweety locket,
it locks my heart in an elysian's socket!

oh dear,how could u be that fair,
how silky,shiny and resplendent are your hair!
your beauty makes my heart sware
to show you the atmost unconditional care!

the way you carry yourSelf,
the way you talk to me,
the way you teaSe me at times,
the way you try to make me jealouS,

the way you Send out geStureS
when you wanna talk to me,
the way you recieve my complimentS,
the way you enjoy my appraiSalS,
the baSiS on which u judge me,

your way of projecting the change
you would love to See in me,
your curioSity to know about me in a mild,Soft way in a
SenSe i shouldnt underStand your Solemn urging towardS me,
iS all Something which iS driving me crazy n crazier n craziest!!!!!!

It pleaSeS my inner Self unexpreSSibly,
n bringS me happineSS Splendidly n pleasure exotically,
i just dont wiSh to aSk anything more to the THEE,
other than juSt talking to me,talking to me and talking to me!!!!!![:)]

oh my Sweet little girl,
how many times have you left me into twirls!
i enjoy every bit of ur unimaginable caress,
if ur with me,how would i even know what is stress?

Maybe with disorderly posed paras but still very satisfied with it....

Does it look real or imaginary???????.......;)

Realistically imaginative :
@kil k@rthik

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24*7*52*21...thru happiness n sorrow...i revere these moments!!!!![:)]

By the strike of 12:00 on this day the 29th july 2009....I would turn 21...all through my these 21 years,i would like to put in front of you all....the 21 best moments....may it be compliments or memories or wildest comments.....

1.) My grandfather,my mentor right from my childhood who passed away last year....was the one whom i admire the most for principled life,who totally made me elated n happy by replying at my mom's concern of how i am studying,what would i be able to do in future if i go this same way,or rather telling in front of him the talks of who is earning how much and saying him "manodu kuda atla sampaayinchaali future lo", when he replied spontaneously not even thinking for a moment,"vaadikemi thakkuva amma,oka two years lo vaadi chaduvu ayponi vaadu kuda valla kante ekkuva sampaayisthadu"....thats enough for me,his confidence in me n his blessings would never let me fail in my ambitions n success n keep me constantly motivated to achieve a lot.

2.)I recently asked my mom in this summer,"some campus recruitment in IARE college it seems,i am a little dilematic to whether attend it or not because its text support people are saying and also i have my GRE class,unable to decide but want to attend it"....my mom inturn replies,"light theesko raa,aah thokkala job ki antha dhooram pothaava,go n attend GRE class,why do you think of something one year later now?"..:O..i was shocked what she is speaking ,later i asked her while i was with her on my bike when she replied,"neekem thakkuva raa,i have full confidence on you,you will get a better job,dont go for those kind ofs"......hmmm thanks mom but where from ull have this much confidence on me?It rather doubles my responsobility now that i should stand by eneryone's confidence......

3.)I was maybe some 10 years old when i got missed out trying to run behind my mom who was taking my elder sister to a doctor's clinic,i got misplaced and was crying sitting at a place but finally reached my grandma's place because the person who first saw me took me to st. andrews schools principal's home n she identified me to be a student of her school n roamed me in her car all throughout marredpally and it took me to see three rounds around the same home to identify that that was my grandma's home......hehehhehehhe a very memorable moment....!!!!!

4.)I was in seventh class when my mom n i got into a bakery and mom took some bakery biscuits parcel to my other cousins home and asked me to hold a 100 rupees she will take again to pay at the counter,i was half dreaming something and then mom gave me while weighing,a biscuit to taste ,i ate that and by mistake cleaned my mouth with that and threw it off in dust bin[:O]....not realising it...later mom asks where is the 100...i say not realising i threw the 100 rupees off ...when did u give me ?u dint,n the n mom asks recollect where did you keep?did you throw it in dust bin...then i recollect that ya i did but deny it because i knew my mom would scold,but my mom could realise that i did with the expression on my face and made me remove the dust bin just to discover that the 100 rupee note was there....[:D]....[:(].....hehehhehehe hmmm felt so idiotic of myself but from then onn my cousins tease me how lavish you are rey,you use a 100 rupee note as a tissue paper....hahahhahahaha

5.)I can never ever forget my early parts of childhood when every sunday i used to dance to the early morning tunes of hare rama hare krishna on the streets of hyderbasthi on shoulders of the elders totally excited....also some moments where i used to sing bhajans in small chaddis in the evening at a bhajan sangam behind my home at hyderbasthi.......those were the purest days of my life and my parents used to adore off to the core thinking what a son we've got so disciplined so devoted etc etc ...but now????;)....hmmmm

6.) I was in inter second year undergoing eamcet coaching when a sir whom i admire the most venkat sir...my physics mentor gave me a compliment of my life......i was answering all questions on par with his explanation on board or rather was repeating what step next in derivation on a static electricity topic when the sir suddenly came to me in the class and said....why dont you try IIT man?you have such good brains.....can never forget that ......a compliment from such great man.....one day in class he quotes while teaching electricity for the students to understand the importance of electronics n electricals as "Today the whole world is dancing to the tunes of an electron"....wow!!!...(it still rings in my ears all the time when i study ECE in engineering)....He is the only lecturer of mine to whom whatever may be my age or stature or salary or anytime of my life,if i see him again would not even think twice to fall on his legs for what all he thought me........

7.)I prepared voraciously for over a month in 5th class on general knowledge from the book "General knowledge,current affairs n who'c who" n then appeared in the maggi quiz where in i got 1st prize in it among many other teams and was gifted an encyclopaedia for that,(felt very happy for it at that age).....

--->I played the character of tom sawyer in a play enacted in my 6th class .....inter class drama competitions.....very memorable are those moments because when i finished my play and came back to watch the remaining in audience,when all the juniors of mine were calling me as tom sawyer though they dint know my name.......that was the impact of just a small play hmmm n moreover even my PT teacher shiela used to call me as tom sawyer all through the rest of my schooling.......

--->It was the 8th class when i got 2nd prize in essay writing in St. andrews high school ...where the topic was india in 20th century ....it was thrilling because i ranked 2nd among thousands and was a great feeling to be called on stage for the prize in front of all those people in morning assembly........


8.)I was elected as the vice captain for the emeralds house in 9th class of my schooling,which selection was as awesome as first they select from each class 5 to 10 members and they attend a interview like thing amongst the vice principal and some teachers who ask you questions of what you would do ec etc and based on your speech ....and based on that on whole of 8 classes of 9th they select some 15 nominations and these have to campaign using posters and talks in each class and all the people vote for the one they like and then was selected as vice captain with the third highest number of votes....wow...!!!!!!!happy moments ...thanks to all my friends who helped me in campaigning and my captain anuraag then n my co vice captain monisha....!!!

9.)hehehehheheheh this is somewhat a little wild.....i slipped from stair cases in 7th class when got a slight bruise at the wildest place .......but refused to show it to my PT madam shiela because she was alady and i felt shy ....:P........this was when i was however saved because of another problem as some girls in my class complained that i am teasing those girls with boys very badly...n the teacher was livid on me but leaved me away sympathetically as i was hurt hehehhehehehhehehhehe unforgettable moment......

10.)I broke my two teeth..one totally n one partially trying to act smart by wicket keeping up very close near my home with my cousins....one of whom smashed with the bat accidentally on my teeth.......result unconsciousness...:D....but after a year with braises for 6 months everything got set and back to normal.......

11.)I was talking to one of my intermediate friend ashwin something generally after a lot of philosophical stuff earlier when he suddenly changes the topic and says ...mama i dont know whether you would be rich or settled in future or not....but take my word you will get a kind of fame where everyone will adore you n that which you could never expect.....thank you ashwin for your wishes and also his compliments in my testi praising me for all my strenghts and comparing me to newton.......awwwww couldnt believe it.......:)

12.)My mom was worried when my grandfathers health was deteriorating at a moment and was like what who would blame our family for no reasons or something or her ply that maybe he is worried that whether we will take care of him if his money is getting over,the concern which the old ones have.....then i said my mom only one thing "no matter whether they gave us some properties or not,i dont know but one thing just for the generosity of them to feed us with food and shelter and giving us place in his home,no matter how much ever money it takes we have to look after him irrespective of anything in this world,n then i said dont worry if we even fini our money no problem,we will do some debt n keep for his health if something that worse happens,n ill pay them off after i work in future "......hmmm dint know how i got these words later......but was really appreciated by many when my mom told them that i said this when she was worried,terming my words and nature to be very good because in this mean world when even ancestors give crores of rupees people are not ready to look after them.....one of my mom's relative rather said yous son told a word that one in a million would utter....hats off to him ....hmmmmm thank you.......[:)]

13.)The two hectic years of 9th and tenth class where the schedule of my life was so busy,was going through coaching in sharma to secure a seat in ramaih for IIT ........would go to the coaching just within 15 minutes of my returning home at 4 :30......that coaching made me learn how studying has to rather be .....i realised it later in my life in intermediate and engineering though i used to abuse the coaching daily during the days i was a part of it bacause it was too hectic in time and even portions they thought ..(that were the days when i got a 109th rank in AS rao exam which was very famous in that age...felt happy for that)...hmmmm...however the +ve in this aspect of my life too was used to enjoy the non veg jokes of seenu sir over there....hehehhee he rocks.....

14.)Sharma sir....our HOD in ece department at MLRIT ....in my engineering ......after my somewhat dissapointing performace in 2-1 gave me the post of the seminar incharge just because i was too attentive and active in class and used to be the first one to speak in public or those sort ....this i felt was a token of regard for my strength and encouraging me to continue the same and also imbibing in me the responsobility so that i dont do that bad in the exams henceforth......

15.)The days when i was fishing out for a girl......baaaah the most complimentary emotions of my life and also the most learning and exciting most,in my total energy levels.....the way i acted enthusiastically on the day i was watching happy days movie on the second day of the relase and only remembering her because everyone who saw first day said its total engg. life everyone feels their life is in that,i was excited to see what aspect of my life were in there....even some dialogues matched and i was too excited,,,....went that movie along with shankar and teja and they tried to calm my emotions down but they couldnt .....hmmmm just because they knew that day that my gf gave me a negative answer already but they dint say me because they wanted me to enjoy the movie and also not dissapoint me and they dint know how to tell because i was so excited and thinking of only her in all sorts possible...that night they stayed at my home to convey it to me .....hmmm was dissapointing then but later many many unexpected things and exciting and dissapointing,a mixture of everything in this aspect happened n still happening in my life......

--->The compliment of my special someone ...that you can become a good writer after looking at the long messages i send her on the cell and internet.....those many more compliments and moments of intimacy shown by her to make me feel her as one of my soulmate is something i would cherish throughout my life.....and keep my passion of writing alive forever n ever n ever


16.)The wildest experiences when i took lift near a guy and was doing something wierd just to learn a little later that he was gay......just shouted hard ,....what the fuck....stop the vehicle and ran away from him.....hahahhahahhahahahahhahahhahaha omg!im happy i was saved...:P

17.)Organising the freshers party to my juniors in the heights of the politics existing for it then ,overcoming everything and making it memorable and a hit .....was very happy for it and also the kind of complimentary emotional circumstances i had then when my grandfather was serious and on bed and dint know whether had to stay with grand father or go n see the arrangements of freshers party ....finally went on with the freshers party as it was too dependent on me and dint want to dissapoint anyone with any mishaps because of last moment not coming .....hmmmm the next day my grandfather expired....[:(],,,,,life always gave me complimentary emotions at their highest peak levels at the same moment ......no regrets but feels sad...why i should get all this at times....!!!!!!!

-->The relishing moments of the tour which i discuss at
http://aksfuelled247.blogspot.com/2009/01/industrial-tourby-fab-four.html

-->The ultimate moments of the fest ecstacy....:D which i describe at
http://aksfuelled247.blogspot.com/2009/02/ecstacy09my-unforgettable-journey.html



18.) It was almost two years back when i took the ayyappa deeksha....the unforgettable moments of which i describe and share at
http://aksfuelled247.blogspot.com/2007/11/unforgettable-day-lead-to-relishing.html


19.)A compliment given by prasanna one of my friend,who is elder to me by three years,right down in inter 2 year holidays when i was 18 year old,looking at my analysing an issue or philosophy that"many times i feel that you speak as matured as a 22 year old guy.....i just cant deny saying it ....i dont know from where this comes to you but i am shocked"....hahhahahaha

20.)I was always the back bencher in engineering and my lecturers used to think i am the one who spoils the environment of class by commenting on lecturers etc etc but when i was given a task of giving a seminar in class i bamboozled her wth atmost clarity of concept(infact even better than her..;)) and looking at how silent the class was when i was explaining(maybe she thought never even these guys n gals sit silent in my class)...n then after my seminar she gave a feedback overly praising off that the youth today should be like akil kathe ....hahahhaha ...he doesnt attend a class,he doesnt listen to class,always talks in class....but when given a chance or a task proves himself right and everyone else wrong....hahahhahaa thats me,keep me under fire and i shall shine like gold.....:D

21.)Anirban sen sir....our quiz club incharge during the school....an ideal perfectionist in terms of all round abilities...his quiz talent is marvellous ...we were lucky enough to get him as a trainer for our quizes and improve our general knowledge......the school required some representatives for some environmental journal or association and also answer the institution what all works we are ready to do on behalf of the organisation from school....i first went for the selections of the representative but later backed off because i felt that environtment n plants n stuff is not my cup of tea......but later anirban sen sir asked me to participate and infact lead that issue...hmmm i wondered why n asked him why?he replies you speak well and i want a person who can communicate well to be the head or incharge for that thing thats the reason i am forcing you.....aaaah was happy for his gesture there...:)

-->Another greatest experience with him which i would never forget is,when we all students of quiz club attended the espn school quiz olympiad at satya sai nigam,srinagar colony to cheer the participants of our school......that quiz was the best ive ever attended n was so great an experience that ive never seen such a well orgaanised and quality facilities used for quiz anywhere....


*****My 19th birthday,the first birthday in engineering was so exciting that just cant explain ....got more than 100 calls from morning for birthday wishes and more than 140 messages on orkut....felt sky high and very happy on that day....though i couldnt expect anything more than this for that special day.......20th birthday was even better when i was gifted a new CBZ extreme bike though i was not desperate for it ....thanks to mom .......!!!!!!!lets c whats in store for this day...the 21st bday...:D*****

My journey through blogging!!!!![:)]

Blogging was something i dint even knew what it was in the beginning.....had just heard that term somewhere.....but knew it was something to internet and witing....then something interested n dragged me towards it,slowly i started reading some blogs then one day i happened to read a blog of my sister named archana......it was so awesome n too sexyyy to not make me feel to start off owning one blog and writing off posts and writings of mine.....what stunned me was the number of articles she had in her blog and i was almost awestruck and dumbstruck on how people can write this much bolke?....then i happened to read some of her posts...all were of decent enough content to be readable and long ones too.....if i can remember it had posts on the environmental issues like pollution,some charity issues,her likes n dislikes,one read effortless pleasures etc etc....but i read one post which totally became my inspiration and driving force to start off blogging.....it was the post where in,i dont deny or feel intimidated because it is like degrading out guys but she categorised all the guys based on her observations as assholes,assorted assholes,decorated assholes etc etc into 4 categories and described her broad variation of guys and their behavious under those categories....was too awesome to generalise something like that and explaining carefully each aspect....

After that i felt i should finally reach a day when i have a handful number of posts on my blog and recently after writing these many posts felt there must come a day when my analysing or understanding of the world must be in such a sense that even i can generalise girls into wider categories just as she did...:D....(this was something i decided in recent summer holidays)and then it took me a depressing moment in first year of engineering where i got some less percentages in acads and was highly dissapointed and felt that i had to reassess myself and get back to higher concentration levels which i achieved for a certain months too,that was when i wrote my first blogpost "A real life experience"......which was rather a time when i used to change my orkut about me's very very rapidly when one of my friend after looking at the content of this first article which i first wrote on orkut said,"mama ur about me is awesome but it is too long for an about me on orkut,why dont you start off blogging?'.....by that time though i had some question marks in my mind,although i had got motivation to write after seeing my sis's blog,the above words by ashwin made me think,"why dont i give a try?".....

And then pasted the whole orkut about me on the blog....thanks to google for blogspot.com....n then did some changes and elongated the post by adding some examples to it...took long time for editing it to perfection n one fine day in september 2007 i posted it.....got some valuable comments on it......the best one was from chaitanya,my childhood chicha where in he was like"i cant believe that you have grown so much that you can put out your heart so extensively,a 100/100 for you...teach me some stuff too".....hehehhe that compliment of his drives me through even now to keep on writing,n the next time he met me personally he said,"mama even ive written two posts on blog do read them",n he was like "i started blogging after looking at your blog only ra",was something which gave me atmost happiness n delight n mirth n enthusiasm!!!!
n believe me that was the only post which i atleast edited till now .....all other posts were almost spontaneous and even without a proof read....they just come out of the heart n thats it ...

But many of my friends complain how long you write...how do u expect us to read them????many of them though i even ask them to read they say how can we when it is so long......some of them rather said on my face ...wait we are reading,we are going episode wise it might take two more days...:(...:O.....but all through these posts there were two people who used to read almost every post of my blog in between and they were Indira(indi) n laxmi sowmya(bouncy).....i thank them from the bottom of my heart because even their comments on the blog helped me a lot to go forward this much.....and lately now i even thank gitika for following all my latest posts.....hmmm also all others who spent their valuable times in posting their comments on the post.....the main thing about these comments is that "It doesnt matter what you write?,u either comment or compliment or mock its not a problem at all,atleast in my view if not others,but when u see someone commenting on ur blog u get the feel haah yaa there are someone who read my posts and also you feel yaa my writing is somewhat learning or has created some kind of thought in someone"....thats what drives you to write more n more n more n also acts as an icing on the cake for ur write ups......!!!!!!!So dont ever forget to put a word or two on something which u have read at any blog anywhere on internet......

Bloggingly,
AKIL THATIPALLI

How blogging helped me???

I would like to tell you all some of the things i learnt from blogging and how it helped me : .......

--> The first thing is i was always so excited about writing posts on my blog that everytime i intend to write just the overview or the top aspect of some topic i feel like writing then and go away in some 5 10 minutes,but i end up writing very long ones for a minimum of 30 40 minutes....

-->"Whenever i write a post or i was writing,i have happiness or a strong feeling in heart n mind that tis is my best ever post or writing ani.....but after i write it i feel no .....there is a post already which i wrote better ....or maybe i can write another better one bolke"(might look show off but its a fact that i feel this stuff and maybe this wierd feeling drives me crazy to go onn n onn relentlessly,tiredlessly to write long posts)...where as some critics also call crappy shit what the hell do u write????in so many sentences which u also know can be written in single sentence.....hmmm i however have a very sound answer to them ...will write that as a post in my blog...:D...:P...;)....:)

-->Whenever i am down or depressed,i feel i can write much more better posts full of content and philosophy and it also has a positive side effect of relieving ur sadness and get back you to your actual energy levels ad happiness.....

-->It felt very unhappy when some of the people when they met me on chat said"hey your blog was nice!"...but refuse to comment on the blog sparing that extra second which motivates you to write more n more....hmmm

-->Through blogging ive learned that there is a much much better scope of development in any aspect of your traits or behaviour or skills or talents or expression or emotions or anything....

-->It contributed in getting a sharper brain,analytical abilities and the concept of lateral thinking

-->Recently got exposed to different styles of writing and enjoying every bit of the innovation and the skill required in it like writing about a narrative story,writing based on what people say,writing based on an incident,poems,one liners,an issue is given and u write a poem suiting that issue.....,testis to persons describing their natures in form of poems,dedications etc etc

-->I wrote an article projecting an unforgettable day and what all ive experienced during my ayyappa deeksha and i was on my industrial tour near athirpally waterfalls somewhat dissapointed over ill healths of many and as they were hospitalised in a local hospital and also the timings of reaching the last place munnar was just postponing very largely,when an old friend chandrakanth of school calls me up n asks details about ayyappa deeksha how to wear?what all should be followed etc etc...after telling everything,i realise n ask "mama why did u call me only raa?',could ask anyone there naa near ur home,he replies"dude i remember to have read yopur blog long backw here you wrote about ayyappa deeksha,thats why i called you"wow!!! what a feeling to feel those words and i know how much happy n relieved i was even amidst those slight tensed moments of the tour......

Overall reviewS.....[:)]

-->Chaitanya says "although all ur posts can be much more precise,nevertheless they have some content which make the reader feel that they are reading something worthwhile "......awesome thank u mann

-->Indi says in a testi written to me on orkut that"Go n read akils blog,those are the insights into his life"

-->Vishal (my school buddy said"your blog is more a kind of a handbook or a abridged personal diary,its nice n shows what all u learned at every instance of ur experience and how your transformation has coccured".......

-->U. ravi (my engg. friend)...i asked him once to read my blog...asked him the next day how was it???he replies"mama i read one post brain heat ekkipoyindhi pakkaku pettesina......inka atlane system meedha unde kaabatti maa anna read chesindu motham"i asked "emannadu mama"...he said that his bro asked him kathe,"evardhi raa ee blog mee college lecturer dhaa ani??"...:O....hahahhahahahahhahahah i will never forget this compliment ........

-->Rudra teja....one of my engg.'s best friends recently went to bangalore on a holiday this summer.....that was when i kept on orkut the caption"my best post ever on blog"....when he was idle there he opened my blog n read some posts,when one of his cousin an elderly 25 26 year old girl saw it and asked it seems."endhi raa neeku itlaanti dosthulu kuda unnara??".....hahahhaha another compliment which will make me very happy....

hehehehhehe will add on further best compliments as and when they come on.....or you people can even take the pleasure in adding compliments to the comments column of this post in order to have your say on my whole blog ....looking forward for many of them .....

thanking all of you,
akil karthik T.N.

Gimme ur case...i study it...!!!!!

This was the poem i wrote for one of my engineering friend in this summer holis.....she actually was depressed,broken,disheartened and what not for some of the misunderstandings with whom she term as people very close and improtant to her.......she told me that she was searching for a poem on internet which suits her mood.......I was a bit free enough to spend some time on my passions this summer so asked her to give me two days and ill write a poem for her based on what all she said she feels......and the below poem is the outcome of it.....


This hot summer might just go away in a while,
but what next,the monsoons with daily gloomy sky?
which would just add waters to the river nile,
seasons goin dry to wet,but my moods n emotions?just getting dry n dry!!!

Why does this happen to me so frequently these days?
don't u understand how much i care for you?
betrayals or misunderstandings or senselessness or whatever ways,
to fight with me,do ull find reasons awaiting in a queue!!!

I just feel helpless,not knowing what to do,
i dont understand what my state of mind is?
even though u act eratic,i dont wanna leave you
though you hate me for the truth i say,for me u r still a bliss!!!

For ur betterment,i dont mind calling a spade a spade,
in the process i argue loquaciously so that u realise,
just for that small reason our relation changes its shade?
disgusting is ur behaviour,depresses me a lot when u act so unwise!!!

Why dont u handle me with subtle care....,
dont break me;i'm as humble,brittle n sensitive as glass,
but that doesnt mean whatever u do ill bare,
blame me for no reason n i dont mind harshly kicking ur a**!!!

I know it wasnt my mistake,
but dont ignore me,as im addicted to u i cant digest,
i doubt whether our relation was just a fake,
but o nerd!better learn that for my friends i give my best!!!

It will take me some more time,
for all u did,to get back to my normal,
maybe longer than what i worked on this rhyme,
but from then i hope ill learn n realise u r abnormal!!!

hmmm...Randomness at its best!!!

This post is as old as maybe 1 year back......Ashwin so sorry mann,u dint like this post at all the day you read it???when i put this on my blog too and asked you to see and tell whether i retrieve it or not......when u said its not showing what you feel at all??whether you are happy or sad?nothing at all......but today when i was trying to edit some of my pending posts or update the drafts which were pending,i happened to see this n felt its atmost worth in showing the randomness of mind and also this kind of post will help me n many in resolving how to tackle the idleness and wanderiness and depression of mind....


hmmm.....this word has become more prominent in my usage when i chat online these days which was not the case before.....the very fact i used to enjoy talking to different kinds of people and not so close kind also makes me feel bored now.....more of the thinking process is going on within me........this might be my smallest and the wierdest kind of a blog post till now or maybe even when i consider my future posts too .......i know i know that even there might be grammatical errors or even blunders in the language i'm using now in the post...because i myself can feel it,the sense of uncomfortableness and the very low in my self confidence......u ask me the reason omg!i dont think i will ever be able to reveal it for what my present thought process is going onn which makes me check almost any action i do or proceed to......u might always wonder while reading this (if u do so)that when i understand the fact for myself that words are being short for me to write what i want to or i'm unable to write something to express what i want to why am i doing it........or why don't i just look back for what ive written recheck it and edit ......but sorry friends i dont believe in editing at all cos it removes the heart n essence n mood n emotion n content of what u want people to understand from the post.......uffffff! enuff of the shit what ive written now .......hmmmm what to do cant help it to any better because i write on the basis of my internal feelings n thoughts and build on it but my thought process n internal feel itself are so scrambled n disturbed .......hence is the result of a whole noisy kind of write up......which might be a use of nuthin to the readers but just the hope that i might get relieved writing it out ........


I end up with some of the lines which i feel to share out with u all :

i feel at this instant of time that life comprises of nuthin more than complimenting emotions every now n then and ur way of respecting and learning from each of them .......but i just wonder for myself when people say life gets great n exciting when u learn from your past mistakes.........but i just want to ask u all at this instant of time that what would ull call me then even though i realise the importance of learning from my mistakes.....i refuse to do so and do the same mistakes all again???????........understanding ability about a particular situation or problem or mistake is very fine and by far advanced than what required .........but if execution ability is what really lacks .....then how come ....what shall happen .....what will be the outcome .........will that person only realise when the outcome will come standing tall n cruelly in front of his eyes.......but if something like that happens what will be the use of it .........what will he be able to do after his hand have been burnt out in fire ..............hmmm all through while i write this it makes me again think one of my scrambled thought that why am i getting so deep into it ......its just because of my bad mood i'm thinking too much n makes me recall that edison failed or committed mistakes more than 100 times on the same bulb before succesfully inventing the incandescent bulb ........but again a scrambled thought arises does that mean that when edison could do it after commiting the same mistake 100 times why cant we.............but these all things merely are said to only motivate and create a spark of thought in you to get better ..........but what will be the cure or solution to a person who understands all this stuff n importance but execution ability of them is truely fallen to nil in recent days.............


what the fuck have i written???????????????but still i make out from all of this is when we r happy everything seems bright n colourful n favourable n nice n simple to us ...but when we r sad and depressed everything looks too gloomy n boring n complicated n longggggg..........n being depressed makes u only sink n sink n sink in depression n nothing else...so what next????another scrambled thought arives into my mind after just stopping for a while typing the above stuff that come on akil dont get too depressed dont think this too much ......"even a stopped clock shows the right time twice a day"...and tries to make me motivated but does that mean that i dont need to get worried becoming a stopped clock and dont i need to think at all or do something so that again i dont become a stopped clock ....or just take it as it goes ......and if it happens like that again ill have the motivationg same dialogue trying to show me the right hour only twice when it has to actually show me the right hour 24 times.....hmmmm now whats the solution????i wonder n wonder n still keep wondering n thinking n scratching my head but again get a thought which my close friend always says ...the problem with u is u think too much ..."dont think too much raa...cos thinking is just a waste of time"........hmmmm n hmmmm n hmmmm words end .......thoughts end ..........movies end......day ends..........but what about my scrambled thoughts as of now .........and ur terrible n stinking feel of what ive written in this post of my blog?????????

do comment on the post....

Randomness personified,
!-\ !< i !

I remember,I remember.....

(I started this poem kind of thing some days behind when i actually dint finish it but wrote the major part of it and completed it on the day before my EMTL final exam of 2-2...but never had the courage to let this out in open for whatsoever reasons....Today i let it out open because ive completely lost hope on something n feel that atleast let me be appreciated or remembered for my skill in writing if not for the skill which i expect to be remembered for ...a rather heartfelt lively one towards an oppo sex!)

I remember I remember,

The after effects of my ever prevailing over confidence,

The days I were sitting all alone,fully serious,totally down

Because of the bitter experiences of my then recent past,

Concentrating on subject,for the thing I wanted the most badly,

My disappeared love towards academics

And stability which I was always known for…….

I remember I remember,

The underlying sorrow n reason for getting serious about it,

nd the circumstances which made me to immediately take charge,

Which made me neither to utter a word during classes,

Nor to turn my head towards anything except the board,

My engineering mates were totally dumbstruck,

Because this was not which I was then known for……

I remember I remember,

The positive energies that were generated at that time,

The improved concentration levels to a ever high,

The day when I also started writing first post on my blog,

As a token of regard for what life thought me through practicality,

I was learning,learning and always in the learning process,

Regaining the qualities which my childhood was ever known for…

I remember I remember,

This drastic and unexpected transformation in me,

Which some more days kept under practice would work wonders,

Uff!Then came the distraction,the attraction,the infactuation,

The confusion,the affection or don’t know what they call that??

Slowly n steadily at snail’s pace,appearing temptingly beautiful,

Now I dint know what was she upto…..

I remember I remember,

What feel brought us closer?what made us happy?n

Who initiated out our internet chat n talk on phone?n

Who complained whom for not sparing time in college?n

Who uttered words that they din’t bother what the world thinks?

Who had the intent to spare time n presence willingly wth whom?

Now it was confusing what was she upto……..

I remember I remember,

Who’s smile n presence itself in class left me mesmerized,

Which phone call was I always excitedly waiting for,

How I would be on cloud9 with a mere hi or bye from her too,

What made me always check my messages on orkut and yahoo,

Her compliment to me having potential to become a gud writer,

Nw I dint understand what my excitement and her intent was upto..

I remember I remember,

Our first long walk towards the basketball court,

Our first long chat (a lecture as she calls) in the library,

Our first memorable O***** to watch the hockey flick,

Her complaints when i even talked slightly against her intent when i was down,

Her clues given indirectly that I hold a special place for her,

Now it was almost clear to both of us what were we upto…

I remember remember,

The day which lead to the bloody twist,

The reason for it being my stupid act,

Maybe it was early or not presented properly,

Or on the other side I felt she gave me pre meditated answers,

But all in all an accelerating force of attraction went to do a stoppie

Now I was confusingly confused what she was upto…...

I remember I remember,

Those long days which we dint talk to each other,

Setting our egos to a ever high,

She was angry in beginning , but again the same

Anxiety and curiosity and jealousy for both of us as ever prevailed,

When time again decided to break our long silence,

Now we were happy n not even bothered where were we upto…

I remember I remember,

How life always acts as a simple on-off switch,

Complementing the emotions of happiness n sorrow,

The same happened to me but more of the latter,

Because of our reasonless and frequent quarrels and egos

And misunderstandings and angers and fears and public talks,

Now dint know where we were leading to……..

I remember I remember,

My erratic position after all this real life drama happened,

Was I happy?was I sad?Was I studying?was I playing?

Was I relieved?was I confused?was I struck?whats my luck?

What do her inconsistent words n contradicting actions to it mean?

All the assertions I have for her when will they be cleared?

Maybe only then will I know where my path leads to…..

U remember U remember,

That its only u who can clear my worries due,

But I wait around eating a chocolate ice cream this summer,

With my head inclined at 45 deg towards the red hot sun,

Wearing a lovely orange cap n a expecting heart with a smily on it,

So that I’m always thinking about you n shall be happy ever after,

Now this might tell u where I want you to make me lead to……..

We remember we remember,that

For all my cousins this drama is just my mere dream in sleep,;)

For all my friends this is my real life experience,

For all children just a fantasy type story,n

For all adults the lesson what they take and learn from it,

But the whole poem is dedicated and is for my lovely dear,

Projecting candidly my life n love with her without any fear….[:)]

Yours ever lovingly,

Written,composed and editied by

akil .?!

Note:

A dot mark resembles my past;

The stability in my life before she entered .

A question mark resembles my present;

Don’t know where do I lead to and what I’m doing n I’m upto?

An exclamation mark reveals my hope for the future;

An heartfelt expectation for an happy ending!

akiliefs...akiloods..will make you akiloholic!

All the liners or points below strictly belong to akil n only akil........he was the one who wrote all those and they do not belong to anyone....:D....any copies of it or same statements anywhere else are strictly not coincidental and termed to be copied from my source...:)).....hehehhe most of them were my orkut or facebook status messages but felt were also good enough to share with all of ull at a place like this,so started saving all of them to display at once how impeccable i am...;).....only the two points were from diff sources so i am candid enough to mention the source in brackets near them and couldnt stop from sharing those with u all too because i loved them!!!!!!scroll down n feel them...:P

1.) Everyone has a brighter side and darker side in them,the day when people start exposing the darker sides to the world not controlling for themselves n not understanding that they are getting shabby...is the day their atmost downfall begins...!

2.) "First BRUSH ur mind hardly on ur CRUSH n then decide for urself whether to BLUSH or FLUSH them out of ur life.."

3.) "Even when the
answer is almost NOPE,
just the HOPE
tht i can COPE up with it
and someday ROPE in
keeps me alive.....!"

4.) "How COME i still dint have RUM.....
when right FROM,i was behind a DUM...!"

5.) "Guys at TWENTY need girls in PLENTY....![:D]......?????.......:O "

6.) How COME ......i called u a DUM ,
it was just a mistake my PLUM,
all through my days its only your name i HUM...!

7.) The gal whom i love the MOST....
rather feels that i behave like a GHOST...!

8.) Knock my DOOR,
its you all whom i ADORE...!

9.) When IMAGINATION meets REALITY,
A poets CREATION induces best QUALITY...!

10.) No closed DOOR,no passive WALL or
The tensions i BORE can ever make me FALL...!


11.) When the going gets real TOUGH,
i go through the ROUGH,
but that doesnt mean i take a PUFF
n then pose a COUGH!
whats that poetry nw!UFF[:D]

12.) When luck doesnt PICK u up from the MASS,
just give a tight KICK to it on its ASS!!!FUCK the LUCK,
its only your good efforts that imbibe great energies into you!!!!![:)]

13.) A mindless guy and a heartless girl can never lead a happy n a prosperous life...!!!![:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]

14.) Its the way u use productively the sharpness of ur brain n choose a stream of ur passion wat determines success n happiness in ur life!![:)]

15.) a SiLenT GUY with cOntRollEd AGGRESSION and a ViolEnT GIRL with cOntRollEd SILENCE sImpLy ROCK...!!!!all the other kinds r crap!!!!![:)][:)]

16.) Even though i went through the golden days of platinum appraisals n compliments in engg. I still remember some of the toughest times i had then![:)]

17.) Some feelings n emotions get better when they are spelled out n shared with the closest ones....!!!!![:)]

18.) My mom says "no girls",but my gf says "know girls"......hmm what should i now do???[;)]

19.) Work PRESSURE n girl friend's PLEASURE are atmost synonymous:P.....in the sense that both take you into heights of the newest world!!!![:D]

20.) Most of the Guys are PRACTICAL where as most of the girls are THEATRICAL..:P

21.) You live in a box,i can live the lid thats enlightened!![:)]..(from the movie sweet november)

22.) Everyone has a mind n a heart but no one knows how to use both of them simaltaneously to great effect!

23.) If god is defined as a feeling dat gives you energy,then my friends,their happiness n solving their problems is wat is godliness to me!![:)]

24.) Even if we dont worship Lord its ok,Infact its for our lazy chaps that spirituality rightly quotes"Work is Worship",but most of us refuse to even do the alternative form of worship![:(]

25.) When will the wandering mind n a willing heart come to a constancy in their endeavours???[:(]

26.) The late US President Harry Truman once said "Better to have a spare inch between the top of your nose and hairline than between the ankle and the kneecap".(abhinay's profile on FB)

LOVE......Loss Of Valuable Education???

LOVE is Loss Of Valuable Education was what i kept my orkut caption some 1 n half year back,just because i was tasting the bitter side of it at those moments though i dint rather believe in it,but felt that statement would make someone feel im going away from them...so kept it...:D,
n then my friend chaitanya,one of my best childhood chicha was online on orkut and thought that i was maybe serious about the comment or maybe facing some problem in this aspect and sent me the following below lines as scraps in our chat.....i just copy pasted the whole of his words because i loved them totally and felt so happy to even read them after 1 n half year recently in holidays (as i was feeling bored initially in holis,i was going through all my scraps on orkut so that something might make me interested or happy)....n found this masterpiece from a master....totally un censored totally unedited...[u will know why im stressing that after reading the last lines...;)]


No dude, love is not loss of valuable education. Never blame an innocent love for downfall of a person. Love is sacred. Its all we blame love becos of its poor intangible nature. Its in all how we look at love. Never have a wrong opinion about love dude. You take decision with mind. But you make Love with heart. Therefore love is much deeper and more binding than a decision. But i dont deny that when u fall down in love its make a huge crater in ur heart but that does not mean that love ruins a person's life. My best buddy remember if u miss this Bus u have another bus coming behind same way love is. You may miss this time but there somethinng coming for u behind. Board it and enjoy the journey till eternity.

Remember buddy, Destiny decides who you meet in life but its only your heart that can decide who gets to stay in your life.
So mama Never underestimate the amazing power of love to change hearts and mindsets. Love can even give fresh inspiration to tackle what seems to be impossible.
........................................
I dont think Iam giving u philosophical orations but as ur my best chichaaaa giving u advice mama hoping that u dont get me wrong
Wishing u bunches of all the best...no worries mama who can miss u..if they then I guess they doesnt knw the art of loving, the art of living, the art of spending life with an handsome and matured guy. They are just simply missing an opportunity that knocked their doors and which would never return back to them like a soul leaving its body and going towards the sky

DreAmSSS.....

Dreams......what are they?why do they actually come?are the things which come to your mind when u fall asleep the only ones which are called dreams?or are ur aims or aspirations for yourself in a big way which normally people say are practically impossible called dreams?.....
hmmm i guess there are different kind of dreams.....which is not i am going to write about ...but rther something much more interesting...;)

"Dreams are not those which you get when u r asleep,dreams are those which do not allow you to sleep".....ive heard this quote somewhere,its so nice n so motivating,may it be any point of your life.
These kind of dreams are rather what i say are prerquisites which everyone should have in order to increase his scope of development.....a person who doesnt have dreams for himself can never ever achieve something exceptional,infact dreams are the only things which act as a driving force from your mind heart n soul to achieve what you have to even though you face many backslidings or hurdles......

There is another wise saying about dreams,which is rather a fact based one that,"Dreams are the strong things well routed in your sub conscious mind and what your mind or heart want/aspire which come to you when u fall asleep"......its so true to be accepted because many of us can never deny that most of us get dreams of the happenings of the previous day which had some adverse(either gud or bad) impact on you.....

Contrarily and occasionally we even get some dreams which happened a long back and left an indelible impression on our mind,these are the ones which are funny n if we try to recollect after waking up we laugh for ourselves but they remain as good experiences nevertheless and you enjoy a lot expressing these kinds to your friends......[:)]....n basically the above kind of dreams sometimes are so unlinking n random that it is like a movie showing a frame first in india and then goes over to china with a reading below stating china...etc etc hehheheheheh......the rather random or unlinked nature also gives a clue for us to understand that it is a very much psycological thing......psycologists say that "Dreams get you the facts which were in past to the surface layers of your brain which your mind generally feels to have remember it,so that its better for your kind of being and suits you"....i dont know exactly how true it is?there might be unending arguments or viewpoints from many members on the origin or impact of dreams.....hmmm

Now i come to the main reason y i wrote this post,which i put under the category of my best dreams!!! There is a belief in our part of the world that what dreams come to you in early morning will be true..... hope that belief is true ...because the kind of THE BEST dream ive got on this day 22nd july 2009 early morning is something i can never ever forget in my life,whatever might be the cause of origin of dreams,i wanna thank it hearfully!!!No money,no riches,nothing in this world can ever buy me those precious moments of about an hour where in I felt i was with my closest someone,These moments are like,"They drown you off in the atmost sweetest nectar of life for moments,wherein as the timing of dream goes onn and onn,you feel like you are going into deeper parts of an ocean of nectar and as deeper n deeper we go into this nectar ocean,the nectar becomes sweeter n sweeter to the sweetest"....... lets get on next to what the dream was all about.....

I along with all my classmates were standing infront of the HOD room,it had a glass door,entering through it n 20 feet on left of it was his cabin,as all of us were talking to him regarding some permission,i suddenly walk out of HOD room in order to put away some biscuits which were in my hand which i was eating at regular intervals during our talk but as a puen beside the hod observed it ,i thought it wont be nice if he pointed out in front of HOD...hmmm n then the meeting finished....there was some special someone of mine who was writing a letter to HOD on another personal permission for something else,i was firstly reluctant to even look at her because we dint talk to each other for very long time and sat with huge egos for each other.....

Then came a significant role sandy,n the place where i and sandy were standing near window was like where i found another letter to HOD,maybe written by my special someone itself but left it off over there because felt it required some changes ,i slowly tried to peep into the letter,in a manner un-noticingly to someone if they were conscious they left a letter at the place where i was,as it had the mobile number and residence number in beneath after the sign i shouldnt be like am interested in her numbers anymore:P....hahahhaa but i wanted to check whether the numbers i have of her are tallying or they have changed just because i lost my cell phone and had to collect all of them again ....saw one mobile number n then the paper flew away from the window.......

Then again the scene abruptly changes without any link from above scene to the below one when i suddenly say sandy lets go out n wantedly we take a door beside my gal where she was still writing or maybe pretending to watch me;),i take the staircase through that door n after some 4 or 5 steps i realise something n say,"hey sandy i forgot my bag on the front side of HOD room{(the place where i started at beginning).....I move back again hoping that the gal sees me,but i shouldnt even care her (hehehhehehe).....just when she sees me i turn away my head i move some two steps forward than her position(both egos n location) where i hear a slow murmuring sweet voice comin out "ento emo ee madhya nannu evvaru care chesthaleru"n i not willing to answer her n go away in my way but still some sudden blush makes me turn back n then i say still uncaring about it"enti?"....n be silent for a while with my mind not willing to talk to her n show attitude but heart craving to talk to her and spare some time...

Thats it again another scene changes where I n her are on road on a rainy day with water stagnant at places....(dont know where my bag went away or sandy disappered now hehehhe) n then i start speaking something which again specifies nature of dreams randomness,i start speaking something about sharma pre IIT coaching somewhat 6 years back n say now that ive got free seat in sharma etc etc hahahhahaha....crap! n then say but im not going because its getting hectic over me n i dont think its required(maybe i got this because this fact is always well routed in my mind that those days were when i felt the most pressurised )n then we enter a small food adda over there n i ask her,"what would you eat?",she replies,"Anything will do!" she slowly moves a little away and tries to open her purse ....i realise that she's trying to pay the bill n go n hold her hands n scold dont act over smart let me treat you .....we both blush at each other here for some reasons dont know what....:(

But then the order is not given at all,because te person sitting on the counter was so confused that he doesnt understand anything etc etc ...somewhat all randomness again comes in for a moment,also even in this dream again my sub conscious mind at that particular scene in my mind works as if hey i should not delay the order anymore becos the gal might feel i am confused or am spoiling the nice moments,n then dont know what happens again randomness,but most importantly there lies in a point where in she tries to move away,dont know for what reason when again i hold her hand pull her hug her in reverse n say where are you going,stay with me for some while because i know again it would be minimum of a month when we again speak:( ...(hmmm so sad...but would make all people laugh for the persons who know about us n read this because that thing is so common between us dont know why n people scold us for having that high egos).......n then remain in same unstressed position which is the most joyous part inexpressible in words part of the dream ....n keep rotating in anticlock wise direction ........hahahhahahahhaaha

Now what my doubts at the end of the day are dint she deny me holdinhg her then???or what was her expression???or did we hug each other in that food adda?:Ohehhehhehehhehehhehehehehhehe whatever ! but i end it with those questions in order to highlight how random my dreams were at every small intervals of time!!!!!!hmmmm but also wanna highlight the fact n point of how happy these dreams make you...which put forward to you virtually the reality for smallest moments of time,the only happiness of that dream which is still flowing in my every bit of nerve and 13 billion neurons made me write this post .I hope for myself from the bottom of my mind,heart n soul that may this dream of mine come true and i shall be the happiest person ever on planet earth......:)......n i wish rather that even all you readers who read this hope for my wish....!!!!!!!

"I dream therefore i exist",
Dreamingly,
@ki!

(what should be the title???)...I take a bow for you!!!!!

Whats going through your MIND?
is something that i still cant FIND,
whatever?but isnt it my HEART
that you have torn APART?......

Where was i WRONG?
but cant we still walk ALONG?
should i think its my FATE?
or would you still blame your MATE?....

Are you bothering about my EGO,
if so i'm ready to let it GO,
but there in after would you be MINE,
if that is so,for u i'll give up even WINE...!

Do you doubt about my LOYALTY?
oh how can i miss a girl of your ROYALTY...
if that is also not your QUESTION,
then i ask you why's this SUPPRESSION...?

You might give priority first to our SETTLEMENT,
i do understand that it might be your REQUIREMENT,
dint u ever see in anything my COMMITMENT,
and how i reach towards it with my cool TEMPEREMENT....!

What stops you from me,i always think of all the CASES?
but meaninglessly you ignore me on what BASIS,
even though i describe about you in such lovely PHRASES,
do u at the end of the day expect me to run behind you like MAZES...?

Two years of my trials have almost GONE,
has any admiration between us actually been BORN?
believe me all this is not just FUN,
i strongly hope that one fine day we shall become ONE...!

Soon shall come a day when we TRANSPIRE
into one and take a BREATHER,
that would be the day we RESPIRE
for each other and forever walk TOGETHER...!

Even when your answer is almost NOPE,
is is just my this above HOPE,
that one fine day i can COPE up with
you and we can rather ROPE into a relationship
still keeps me alive.....!

But i still keep wondering all days along that

Whats going through your MIND?
is something that i still cant FIND,
whatever?but isnt it my HEART
which you have torn APART?......

Yours lovingly.
@ki!