Interrogative?????????maybe yes but yet illusive n elated AKIL in his redefined way ! :)

This write up is exremely personal to me not in the sense of secrecy to be maintained or its content but is infact my heart and mindset in which the last week of my mirtful ride was all about.........and i share it becos i would like to just bring it to the notice of my dear ones how am i feeling about as of now.......so that they can guide me if i am wrong somewhere,and it dopesnt matter to me if u feel that i was childish or foolish in writing all this crap and if u think it is crap yeah it isbut this crap too matters for me very much,so do kindly respect it and i will feel that u respect me if u can respect this talk,that important this is for me,as this process goes on once in a while here and there for me and i dont know what to do at these times?????.........lets start off



*************** I ME MYSELF ***************

"PEOPLE SAY ONE BIG MISTAKE AND YOU ARE OUT BUT I SAY ONE BIG MISTAKE AND YOU
ARE IN",

becos it is the only way through which you can learn a lot for ur future about the reality of life even though temporarily you suffer for your mistake..........as SARKAR says "logon ko hamesha paas main aane waali kushi se jyaada dhoor main aane waali nuksaan ke baare main sochna chaahiye",ussi tharaa paas main aane vaali katinaayi se jyaada agar tumhe dhoor main aane waali balaayi ke baare mein sochna chathe ho tho bas dont worry about mistakes becos mistakes are inevitable and we are after all humans..........thats the gist of what ive learnt recently.........people laugh at me when i share personally at times what ive wrote below.....but i cant help it and i dont care at people's laughter when i know that what all ive shared is true ......cos that kind of thought process is going on in my mind.......

hmmmm.......am i happy?? am i sad??am i worried??am i relieved??am i serious??am i joking??am i studying??am i playing??am i confused??am i not??or maybe what am i all about?? who am i ??what do i think of myself??why am i becoming suddenly so down at times these days??why am i getting instantaneuos energy levels even for silly reasons??why have i become so depressive at times??am i true to myself??did i do something foolish or rubbish??did i do something great??huhhh enuf for now..........i dont know what i am doing???....but these are the kinds of assertions that were coming to my mind a week ago......dont know whether it is right to think that much at this instant of life........dont know whether i am right in doing so or not......but still have resolved myself after a voracious thought process which went for about a week and am happy now becos i somehow feel that,the so called akil who was a lil erratic thinking about all these crap has somehow got all his confidence levels back and is back to the same energy levels and the fuel for which he is known for........coming to the above interrogatives...... cant answer to all the above questions but the first question will be addressed for sure.... very happy for myself and my conscience and very excited too....all just becos of two drastic reasons in just a small interval of time .....being true to my owns conscience and watching the best movie for youth till date HAPPY DAYS..........so these two reasons drive away all my above interrogative sentences......becos my happiness and confidence after those two events drive them all off.....[:)]and make me think not about anything or get worried about nothing and lead life to its everything......even though there are some hurdles and back slidings here and there.....but am thoroughly enjoying it as of now becos somehow feel that till now i knew only about the farex and cerelac about the reality of life but now in the lane and process of maybe not completely knowing but in process of knowing the beers and wiskys and champghanes of life......thats it about my mindset as of now.............................

one last word of thought.....

Bas log kehthe they ek zamaane main ke pyaar ke baare main jaanna chathe ho tho laila aur majnu ko dekho ya devdas aur paro ko dekho ya romeo aur juliet ko dekho ya titanic movie ko dekho lekin bas main kehtha hoon ki iss zamaane main pyaar ke baare main samajnaa chahthe ho tho HAPPYDAYS main chandu aur madhu ko dekho........that realistic it is![:)].........go and watch happy days to see yourself and know what college life is all about a suggestion to all my fellow mates in engineering and a request to bloody people who dont know how to completely live it and live it just like they do it in intermediate.......and i bet you dont know how were the days for you teill now in your college but in future after watching it you will transform your days in front into happy days for sure..................

sorry if u ever felt that why was i so intense at the beginning as if there is a serious problem i am suffering from and i need to get out of it and what is that which troubles me,ull were unable to figure it out...........my main worry or rather would say that my main concern for me in this frame of my mind is why do i get these many questions to be asked for myself????why am i so assertive???is it right to think so much??or what shall i do to stop doing it???......but one thing is for sure .........those times when i get these kinds of thoughts ........oh my god let me tell u feel like doing nothing except to just do some serious thinking ..........but although at the end of its thought process learn a lot from it............thanking yu for sparing ur time and reading me or rather would say listening to me becos ive spoken my hjeart and mindset out...........[:)]

"LIFE AINT ALL SUNSHINES AND RAINBOWS, ITS A ROUGH AND A VERY MEAN PLACE AND IT DOESNT MATTER NOT HOW HARD YOU HIT IN LIFE BUT WHAT MATTERS IS YOUR ABILITY TO STAND ERECT EVEN AFTER GETTING HIT HARD BY LIFE"

and me in a trial of just doing that....so lets see what happens ..... ??

Yours truely and heartfully:- A redefined AKIL[:)]

kindly post ur comments or rather would say suggestions to me about my write up.....