ecstasy09-the rapturous delight!!..Unforgettable moments in life!! :D

My present mood makes me say this...

I raise my voice today because i want the people to know what ground reality and my journey through the fest was all about but rather not to blow my own trumphet.....

All the so called prestigious idiots who laughed and mocked at me when i proposed a plan that a big bollywood celebrity should come for our college fest,

All the assholes who said even the day before the fest that we the core commitee are eating away all the money,no Vishal no Shekhar would come the next day for the concert,

All those who asked whether vishal and shekhar are really coming in form of a spoof at our organizing committee,

For all those who dint believe my words when i announced along with my ever supporting buddies of organizing committee in classes of my college that "We are proud to tell you that the music director duo "Vishal n Shekhar " are coming to MLRIT"............


For the limited resources we had and for the grass roots from which we had to work on motivating the people for the fest creating our route for that celebrity night to happen,

from building an annual fest structure for the 4 years old college ,hoping for the trend to follow ever after even us,from searching the ever carrying fest name for MLRIT to be ECSTASY,

from giving sufficient explanations to all the students who raised doubts against our plan,from explaining the need of doing something this big for our college,

from explaining what the fund structure for the fest would actually be like,from conveying what the division of work would actually be like,

from passing the hurdles of giving sufficient proofs n explanations and taking permissions for every small things to be done with the most respected dignitaries of college,

from being as open and clear to people as possible to us,

to our unsuccessful result of the hunt for sponsorers,

to our deficit in finance raised to what we promised,

to our heights of mismanagement in some of the key aspects of the fest on the V day,

to our defensiveness in some aspects of public relations,

to our never loosing temper even if some people provoked us,

to the heights of disunity in thought process observed n faced among the few highest dignitaries of college,

to our longing meetings in college observing the sunset and then the time to return home,

to my couple of weeks of not even looking at college gate,

to our 45 days long journey of our commitment and involvement into the fest not attending any classes at all,

to the appraisals of the students and our secretary,

to the disappointments in our journey,

through the lunch less days,

through the sleepless nights,

through the disturbance in our routines,

through the extended support of our ever young and dynamic secretary Sri. M. Rajashekhar reddy,

through the extended support of the enthusiastic students of MLRIT, through the ever unforgettable members of my organizing committee who backed me and raised my spirits when I was emotionally down,

I Akil karthik T.N. am proud to be the one amongst the 1600 students of my college to initiate ECSTACY ‘ 09, MLRIT’s maiden cultural fest and am very happy to be a part of the organizing committee,one amongst the most talented ,enthusiastic ,strong ,bold young men who include Teja,Shravan, Shankar,Sai Krishna,Srikar,Bharat, Surya,Shashi,Shankar bhanu, Hemanth,Kiran,Leekith, Kranthi ,Vishal,Sandeep,Venkat and many others.

This journey was a learning curve to all of us and helped us learn the practical lessons which are the most important for happy living. I thank all my friends of the organizing committee and all the students of MLRIT and my dynamic enthusiastic ever supporting secretary for providing me this opportunity and platform to display my skills and learn new things. I apologise the secretary for all my mistakes committed either knowingly or unknowingly.

I would like to end it up in a nut shell with what I term the whole of ecstacy09 saaga to be,“I dreamt,my secretary delivered n that’s it, every one out there in the concert experienced the rapturous delight.It is now for the world to decide whether i was a hit or a flop in my this trial.!!!

Thanking you,

Delightedly,
@ki!

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Crescent moon.......n my moon ...the white devils!

All throughout my life i wondered how people could write based on imagination and interpretetion,but realised lately what truely can be done if you are in a fantasy type mood.......i hope my below write up on Romantics does impress you all......

Moon,the most romantic gift from the nature,its just everyones delight to keep watching the moon,i wondered whats that great or beautiful in it,it took a long travel in bus from medchal to paradise to learn about the moon a few days back,but believe me i totally got my answer just as my flow of thoughts looking at it drived me through into jubiliant delight......

My mind n its status then :

I was totally down for five days with some kind of pressures on my mind which i felt that i couldnt handle properly and thought for myself why did i enter into something this big or take this big responsobility,but that 5 day depressive mood n silent saaga ended when i started off my natural aggressive intentful delivery or atleast speaking openly what i wanted even if whomsoever higher dignitories were in front of me......i rather feel that whenever i become depressive,the ground reason would be that i shift off from my naturality of talking more and just start off thinking for a while of what is happening when something goes wrong,n moreover i get carried away by that thought process that yeah i was wrong in taking some decision orelse this situation would not have occured ....and thats it from there first the guilt starts off that i have to answer for my inner self that ive created a mistake,but just because that i am in a depressive mood n feel overly accountable for my inner self ,in this depressed mood dont know what happens but whatever i do makes me feel that i am doing something wrong which is just a scenario what i feel happens because my spirits and confidence for anything becomes totally low,which is not what people say i am known for!All my friends would love to see me active and ever excited pulling some or the others legs or just smacking something here and there or whatever,but just a wild verbose is what they expect and accept me as,though i hurt them to a very larger extent by sattiring n countering them at that time ........

The reason for the long journey :

huhhhhh what am i writing about ....hmmm so coming back to the point after 5 days of that depressive mood just because i felt works are not moving at the expected pace for the ECSTACY09......it was 29th evening when i out burst everything from my mouth and spoke whatever i felt was right not thinking about how people would take me and thats itt,this small point brought back all my energy levels and fuel for which i am always known for,from that evening 4:00 p.m. i sware i think i dint even stop ringing some or the others ears till 10 in the night (sorry teja,srikar,shankar,shravan and sai...;)...)but that feel good factor and the coming back of confidence dont know for what specific reason made me feel on top of this world,hmmm what was up in store for the next day?As a worthwhile saying goes that "good things come in small packages",the same happened next day,had so many works for the fest but unfortunately had to get occupied with some other work of sitting on a cash counter of my cousins shop because he just requested me for that one small favour as he was on a tirupati trip and dint want to hamper his buisiness for even one day.I couldnt deny his request so i told him i would do that ,but who expected that i would have so many works on that day,when i was the most required in my college for some important meeting again regarding the fest ,so just left to college saying him that ill return in a hour....but couldnt help myself in maintaining the Indian Stretching Time and returned back in 3 hours....then i stayed there in the shop till night and then,at 9:00,closed the shop n took a bus to come back home....from my seat,i had a just random look to my right through the window,n yeah thats what turned me completely ecstatic even in my days of completely immersing in only ECSTACY09....

The eventful exciting journey :
(lots of excellent lessons learned)

In the bus on my way back home,I was amazed by the look of the crescent moon and then just a very small bright shining star on to its left below it ,i was totally happy and excited to look at the purest form on natures beauty in this manner and thats it looking at this nature's ecstacy,my rapturous delight towards it got converted into me becoming as frenzy as a poet!I started comparing it to my real life instance and see what all can i learn from it or extract to be the similarities between us!

(Love lessons from nature...1)

The moon .....wow its beautiful even than my moon........but is it true???????,the moon is so eratic,it keeps changing its form daily,do you need to just fall into an infactuation looking at its beauty but not noting that even it has dark spots in it?????or do you get satisfied just by even looking at the crescent moon when you know the fact that the full moon is the ultimate???whatever....i wont answer them,but one thing is for sure,i rather felt at early instants of my journey that even though this lovely shape of the crescent moon is so beautiful dont ever take away the beauty of that night's sky is also because of the fact that no matter how small it is,the bright little shining star also contributes,I wondered and wondered along through my journey just looking at it in the pose of eyes right just as everyone do in a march past.........then next came an assertion into my mind,that is it the combination of the moon and star what adds on to the beauty of the nights sky (or) are there any other things or just one among them that can bring sky the same beauty?????.......but here i felt like comparing this instance to myself in real life where people always say me,"akil you are just awesome as you are,shining bright,always spreading happiness in and around your proximity but you are not complete,if you can just rectify yourself a little more and improve on some other aspects then you will be unbeatable,"made me understand the fact that the full moon is the ultimate and is much more mirthful than the crescent moon no matter how much ever it shines,(i think ull got a point of what ive learnt from the nature),

Also i felt that i could compare myself to this night's sky in the sense,wherein my friends say that the girl whom i am fishing out for is not worth for me and not of my range and doesnt suit my charisma and my nature n thinking at all,They simply that she aint that elevated,I rather used to accept them always te be true,very true but at last,i felt the nature gave me an answer that day for my actions n interest towards my girl,my love,my life." Just look at even the nature the god's creation ,there we have out in sky a mighty moon,not in its mightiest form but just in a very small part of its actual highest energy levels but looking handsome enough,below it lies the small little ever shining smiling star,not bothered of the size of the moon but maintaining its same size everyday full to its capacity in terms of size showing that it is complete in its limited resources!whereas the moon boasts of itself being much more dominating and happiness embibing object but is it complete for itself considering of what more it is capable of in terms of its size and brightness??? and moreover even if some say that it is complete on one full moon day in a month but is that enough ???? and doesnt its changing nature show its fickle nature???"

(So i felt for myself,was it right of people to rate someone who has greater skills but doesnt use it to its fullest n never reaches the expectations over him as someone far far superior on an overall.....whereas there is someone else on the other side,who might have limited skills but always lives to her complete capabilities n reaches the expectations on her.....)

(Love lessons from nature.... 2)

Then i was watching through my window still thinking what more can i learn from this apart from what worthwhile my frenzy expression already made me to learn,then came some trees here and there to obstruct the view for a matter of seconds just to make it like a blinking background,that however couldnt disturb my thought process......hmmm moreover now the position of the moon n the smiling star was changing in such a way that first i had to just look at front in right to have a look at it ,n then slowly my exact right,n then my right back ......


Position 1 : From this above observation I learnt n corelated that it was much comfortable to look at front,which looks very comfortable,sceneric and temptingly beautiful,which i term as synonymous to my position at the start of my love with her....

Some time passed when i had to move on to the second position.....

Position 2 : Then coming to the point of looking exactly right,this was a little strainous than earlier case but never the less as beautiful as ever,which i compare to the time when i was into getting her,knowing more about her and loving her for all her traits n qualities n silliest things,people felt these both are into a relationship.....

Then came the time when trees passed,sometimes the moon and the star looked very clear luicid and then sometimes like a blinking background,after the stage of looking straight right came some obstacles which were like huge buildings which obstructed the view of both the star and the moon .......so i thought for myself this was the time when people stopped thinking about whats the relation between the star and the moon .....

Position 3 :Moving on to the position of looking right back,was the atmost strainous making you feel many times to just move your neck straight,but never the less a small gush of cool air too was enough to keep me interested in looking at the sky,this i compare to my present position where in things just dont work out as before,the passion decreases but never the less,a small boost anywhere gets everything normal all again.....

Although the fact was that for moments from here,i tried to see that whether there would be a time when i can just see a moon or just see the star all alone in this sky because thats what i expect my present situation to be like because the star aint getting any close to the moon..:(....hmmmm whatever but it never happened.....

(I just understood now why people get bored of talking about a happening couple too after a little time,just as how i seemes like looking at the same crescent moon and the star .....)....but then came the boost,the flyover which made the clearest view again just as the start of my journey about the star and the moon,looking very romantic at each other temptingly appearing beautiful to each other;but with the contribution of the raised energy levels and interest levels just as the flyover,it made me again look at it (just as people again look at the couple,when something new happens and again talk about it).....but how long?once the bottle is full with water it should again some day get empty because everyone is thirsty...!just the same thing happened when i descended the flyover in my journey.....

The conversations.....

I was thirsty about what more can i learn;Then there came some points where i could see just the moon from the gaps of the building and the star couldnt be seen for moments,hmmmm but take away the obstructions n again they both were together even for the perceptions of a human eye,so ive learnt that it is only the obstructions at times which hampers our thought that the moon n the star are not together for moments,i was now anxiously waiting that would there be any point where only the star would be visible and not the moon,and after a long long time it needed the widest angle to be seen,somewhere near suchitra as the bus was in a cross angle and the star,in front of the moon in position,whenthe high elevation of a building obstructed only the moon and hence could only see the star.I wondered and wondered n thought for myself wow! happily i would always even hide my identity from people to realise that she was the only shining bright star in the sky.....

Then the bus was slowly entering into the city where i and my neck got tired looking right and only right ,but just for a moment i shifted my head to left and believe me i was taken to surprise that the star dissappeard for few minutes ....though the moon was clearly being seen......but where does the beauty of the sky go from here onnnn???and how would people ever learn that the moon gains its status because people feel its much brighter and happiness embibing when compared tothe star???......and also gains respect because it spreads light to the star,was hoping and hoping that dissappeard star comes back again to the proximity of the moon,if not closer than before,atleast to the same proximity.There she came the shining star out in the sky slowly and steadily saying ....."You feel you are the crescent moon,people say you that you are the greatest and you agree to them,then why are you worried when the smallest star is not in your sky???i being the smallest in the sky could disturb you so much and make you think of me,why so???what do you think this is all about???"" i feel lonely without you,when you move away from me i understand your worth"said the moon,"If you move away from me,then whom should i share all my light with??,dont ever again do that,"then again the star replied "so dont ever get carried away with the temporary obstacles or the obstructions,just because there was so much of pollution around when we entered into the mean city,i dint want our sky and its beauty n our love for each other get shrinked by the polluted minds,so thats the reason i shrinked and hided my identity for some time so that people do understand that you are mighty as you are earlier,n dont feel pityful about you being with me,but i do accept that these times you feel lonely in the sky but,when the pollution levels decreased i definitely would come back to you again,that was my plan," ....i hope now you understood how much you need to consider the polluted public's view in personal relationships,when you know the fact of how much you would loose when your counter part wasnt with you.......


Now both of the star n the moon rejoiced for getting back to their proximity,"now let us think for a moment like what people who support you do,"the star said sarcastically,"go tell your people how mean you are,while i hided my identity so many times when there were so many obstructions to just make people understand the worth of you in a sky,you mean fellow,as you were powerful and high in intensity,you just shrunk from people only once n thet you dint care towards your love one as mush it did,"the star continued,"whatever you do,i am the same ever shining waiting for your brightness to be embibed in me,"then they both thought together for themselves,"No matter what the circumstances are or what the obstructions are or whatever pollution arose,we might hide our identities temporarily,shrink behind the clouds at times,but dont ever forget that beyond all these problems n polluted perceptions,far far away from them n this mean world,up there as in the deep blue sky,from the deepest of our hearts we shall always live together sharing the same proximity and define to the rest of the world what love and relationships are all about,adding to the delight of every poets frenzy expression and every writers rapturous delight too!!!!!".........

Then i came down to paradise when i had to get down the bus when slowly many more stars were visible into the sky,although the star spoke those many things,still again a slow mourning voice came out that "Dont ever forget me when you find so many stars,do take into consideration how much effort ive put on to conveying that you were the brightest when we were lone in the sky away from the busy city life,also falling into your busy life around your home where you have so many stars i worryingly hope that rather you would not get diverted to give the same brightnes or infact greater brightness to them looking at the differences in their sizes or their appearing temptingly beautiful and forget me,Thats what makes me control myself to not getting more closer to you and maintain the same distance from you,"

"Incase you even get diverted to some other star,dont ever forget that the day when you are away from your busy life i would be the only one you look upto for and you would be the only moon from whom i expect myself to shine,"

A message for my lovely friends :

hmmmm thats it for now but all the people who suggest me somethings about attitude,nature and inclination n compare me with her,never ever forget that,"In a relationship,it is this mutual attraction,admiration,understanding,what one soulmate expects from another and the dependency on each other is what adds beauty to the existence of a relationship!!!!"Also learn from the law of nature that there can never be two moons of identical nature in same sky and just try to imagine a day when two identical moons co-existed at atmost proximity,but would it contribute to any amount of beauty in the sky when compared to what the moon n star together does.......wow!

A promise to my moon,my soulmate!

"oh my shining little ever smiling dear star,i would love to even come away from my busy life,just for what all you did for me but please please do come nearer to me so that we look much more beautiful and symbolise mutual understanding,affection and beauty of a relationship to this whole world....!"

Note:(worth a twist in the tale)......Romantics is the study of nature and not the study of romance as you might have guessed when you read the word in the start of the writeup........

P.S. : Took so long for editing this write up.......that it still might look this complex after lots n lots of my efforts to simplify the writing......hmmm u cant help much when akil is in this prime flow of writing to condense or not complicate a writing...[;)]....

(I dont think i will ever be able to describe these many varied feelings n emotions all together this greatly,i guess my best post ever,consisting of all ingredients of a write up....!)


Thanks n regards,
Totally excited,
@ki!....... [:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]


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